9/2/23 ^^^ I just realize that it has to be a life of discipline and commitment

 So as planned I sleep at 10:00 pm and wake up at 4:30 am.  I already got it right.  Now is to stay on course.

I did it in 2021.  I was on track.  2022 was a wasted year.  Let's stop there.  We make 2023 a winning year.  Let's fight the shortcoming of SSIDSLIP all the way.

Enough is enough.  The bu[nch] (buck) stops here regardless of the circumstances.

Sarah, I had been giving this a very serious thought.  No matter what I have to hang on to the Secure Attachment.  That is the only way I can stop being clinically depressed.  

It's like having a drogue during a storm.  It helps to stabilize the boat.

We keep the BLESS 33888 formation intact.  As long as I am emotionally stable, I can do it. We are in the Eye of the Storm.  I got to have faith in all of you.

It's a team effort.  I just don't want to crack under pressure.  I have the tendency to push it to the limit.  Well, beyond the br[ain] (brink)  there is only madness.  I don't want to go there again.

Therefore...  As I mentioned, hold on to the Secure Attachment.  The lucid dreams are becoming more frequent.

This path is not an easy streak.  Physically I have to fight inflammation and obesity head-on.  Definitely, I need a drogue to keep me stable.

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